Today ,2 days after Chinese New year , I m travelling back from my hometown(Hu bei Jing men) to Guangzhou where I m currently working . my hometown is 1200 kilometers away from Guangzhou and with the Chinese K train it took me 17 hours for transportation ..

I chose to leave 2 days after new year ,cause I thought nobody would travel at this time . Come on !!! ,only 2 days after new year , people are supposed to be visiting family here and there ! But I found  I was wrong , totally wrong when I arrived the train station , I was totally shocked ! how is it possible ??? thousands of people are in the train station in my small hometown ,waiting for the train back to Guang zhou .These people are like me ,they have family in my hometown and work in Guangzhou ,cause they have to make plenty of money for their kids to go school hospital and look after their old people .....

Every time i leave my hometown ,my parents ,i feel so upset . I wish life can be easier for me ,I hope I could stay closer with my parents ;I know of corse I can choose to live like this  ,but i ll have to at the same time lose other things that can even be equal weight in my heart as my parents .

life is not as simple as when we were students any more .choices change lives .

I just hope to have stable life with my love ,not worrying about money ,worrying about jobs any more . when our jobs and economical situation is stable ,we can have a cute baby ;my parents wont be worrying about my marriage issue any more ...........

Right now ,as a 22 year old girl ;I m really burdened too much , so very stressed . It is supposed to be the most beautiful age for a girl ,but as I see , so many girls at my age ,are even suffering more than me . low salary in big city , no family around ,big pressure from job ,no time for dating,no hope for future   ..........

I dont know if its just people born around 1989, 1990 suffering so much or most young people are feeling this way . 

The only thing I do know is that I m so tired , not physically but mentally !  I wish all girls fighting hard for life like me can soon be released and achieve whatever we are dreaming of .